Snowflake Challenge #4: Goals
Jan. 8th, 2020 11:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
enemyofperfectI'm not usually much for setting explicit goals, a fact which I think causes some sorrow to my more organized friends and family members. But there are a few things I'm hoping to work towards this year!
The most concrete is Chocolate Box: I've signed up, I'm super excited about my assignment, Chocolate Box is definitely happening! And since that's a commitment to other people, I know I'm definitely going to write and finish something this year -- which isn't always a given for me! -- and that's a good feeling even apart from whatever awesome gift I'm going to get.
The most terrifying is definitely that I should probably try and see about learning to drive. I never did before, because I have Anxiety and driving a Large Metal Box at High Speeds was always kind of a turn off, but unfortunately, it's also a pretty useful skill to have. So... I've told my therapist I'm going to get serious about it; I've found a place that specializes in nervous students, of which I am definitely going to be one; and... I guess we'll see where that takes me?
The most annoyingly practical but likely to benefit my daily life is that I want to try, literally for the first time in my life, to get my physical belongings organized. This is going to be tough when I have no idea what an organized living space actually looks like! And also when there are piles in my room that are so covered in dust that they're viscerally unpleasant to deal with. But my hope is that if I keep chipping away at it, eventually I might start to figure out what I might need in a system that works for me.
Contrariwise, the most intangible while also likely to improve my life is working on connecting with other people. This one is already off to a great start with the folks I've met throughst_aurafina's friending meme and the ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
snowflake_challenge! And I'm also hoping to do a somewhat better job of reaching out to friends and family I haven't stayed in touch with as much as I'd like. I guess at the same time, I'm also hoping to improve the quality of my existing relationships by being a little bit more aware of my own needs and interests, instead of putting quite so much effort into taking care of other people even to the exclusion of my own needs. It's a little bit scary, but I think it's also going to be good.
And finally, the goal that's the most likely to give me a tiny irrational smile when I think about it is just to try and get back in the habit of exercising in ways that work my muscles and make me stronger. I've spent a lot of time feeling really unhappy about my body, and my dysphoria still isn't a thing of the past, but it feels good to know that with practice, I can get stronger and more physically capable, and that my body isn't just a static form I'm trapped in, but a dynamic system that can change in ways I feel good about. So that's something I want to work on too!
And you know, this entry actually felt a lot better to write than I was expecting, so points tosnowflake_challenge once again. ♥
The most concrete is Chocolate Box: I've signed up, I'm super excited about my assignment, Chocolate Box is definitely happening! And since that's a commitment to other people, I know I'm definitely going to write and finish something this year -- which isn't always a given for me! -- and that's a good feeling even apart from whatever awesome gift I'm going to get.
The most terrifying is definitely that I should probably try and see about learning to drive. I never did before, because I have Anxiety and driving a Large Metal Box at High Speeds was always kind of a turn off, but unfortunately, it's also a pretty useful skill to have. So... I've told my therapist I'm going to get serious about it; I've found a place that specializes in nervous students, of which I am definitely going to be one; and... I guess we'll see where that takes me?
The most annoyingly practical but likely to benefit my daily life is that I want to try, literally for the first time in my life, to get my physical belongings organized. This is going to be tough when I have no idea what an organized living space actually looks like! And also when there are piles in my room that are so covered in dust that they're viscerally unpleasant to deal with. But my hope is that if I keep chipping away at it, eventually I might start to figure out what I might need in a system that works for me.
Contrariwise, the most intangible while also likely to improve my life is working on connecting with other people. This one is already off to a great start with the folks I've met through
st_aurafina's friending meme and the snowflake_challenge! And I'm also hoping to do a somewhat better job of reaching out to friends and family I haven't stayed in touch with as much as I'd like. I guess at the same time, I'm also hoping to improve the quality of my existing relationships by being a little bit more aware of my own needs and interests, instead of putting quite so much effort into taking care of other people even to the exclusion of my own needs. It's a little bit scary, but I think it's also going to be good.And finally, the goal that's the most likely to give me a tiny irrational smile when I think about it is just to try and get back in the habit of exercising in ways that work my muscles and make me stronger. I've spent a lot of time feeling really unhappy about my body, and my dysphoria still isn't a thing of the past, but it feels good to know that with practice, I can get stronger and more physically capable, and that my body isn't just a static form I'm trapped in, but a dynamic system that can change in ways I feel good about. So that's something I want to work on too!
And you know, this entry actually felt a lot better to write than I was expecting, so points to
snowflake_challenge once again. ♥
