Small victories

[enemyofperfect]

Me, upon writing three short paragraphs of mediocre-at-best fanfic, after like half a year in which I couldn't make myself write anything:

1. I am awesome.
2. I am going to sleep.

(Seriously, I was worried that something was lastingly broken. Which you know is ridiculous, and I know is ridiculous, and my therapist has told me repeatedly is ridiculous (only nicely), but there it is. Or rather: there it was!)

Comments

[poulpette]

Yay for managing to write! I'm happy for you, not writing sucks.

[enemyofperfect]

Thank you! :D

[azurelunatic]

Yay writing; yay sleep.

[enemyofperfect]

Two important elements of a well-balanced enemyofperfect!

[violsva]

Yay!

[enemyofperfect]

<3

[catharsis_logs]

*cheers and wild applause* Also I'm so glad that the new meds seem to be working for you! Also congrats on the fic writing! I'm a work-in-progress it that area as well.

(I'm sorry I've been away from Dreamwidth so long. This year has really sucked me up into a whirlwind of damn-things-are-happening-really-fast and midterms-for-spring-term-are-over-already?-I thought it was still fall!)

(I've had an increase in my Zoloft that I quickly lowered again because it was making me paranoid instead of anxious all the time, and I've noticed that paranoia is actually more damaging to me than actual anxiety. Anxiety is worrying about things that MIGHT happen. Paranoia is being actively suspicious of people, and I don't like that.)

[enemyofperfect]

*hugs* Thank you! I'm pretty happy about both those things myself. And I've been thinking they might not be unrelated -- it's weird how low-key writing can be sometimes, now. I mean, not bad, obviously, but so weird!

No worries about not finding time for Dreamwidth -- I tend to figure you're busy with school and stuff, and Tumblr usually provides proof of life. :) I'm sorry the Zoloft increase didn't work out well -- and that's such an interesting distinction between anxiety and paranoia. I can imagine that I might prefer anxiety, too.