hello again, world

[enemyofperfect]

I didn't mean to fall off the internet, but I did. Not all at once -- weirdly, I managed to post a couple of fics after going quiet here, which seems exactly backwards to how my energy and anxiety usually work.

But it does make sense in a way. What's felt hardest for me is consistency, showing up reliably in the ways that I want to, and since I'd written a couple of oneshots, I didn't have to worry about much besides throwing them on the archive. Whereas here -- and despite the username I picked because I knew I needed the reminder -- it's easier to feel like if I'm going to X, I should also Y and Z, and then I end up giving up on the post before the whole alphabet comes down on my head.

In 2025, I want to try to remember that something is usually better than all-or-nothing. If I can show up sporadically or not at all, I want to try poking my head out at least sometimes.

The cats continue to be a source of joy, by the way. It's very difficult to take good pictures of them when they're awake, but here's one of them snuggled adorably. ♥

Two brown tabby cats sleeping with their faces snuggled together. One is tucked neatly on her side; the other is half turned onto his back with his soft belly fur showing and one front paw curled in.