Sick cat news
Jul. 15th, 2014 05:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
enemyofperfectThe short version is, it's not good.
My cat is full of cancer in much the same way that a chocolate chip cookie is full of chocolate chips. My unhappiness about this fact seems to be distributing itself in a similar fashion, except maybe with more ingredients: acceptance, dissociation, yelping with laughter at tumblr posts that may or may not be funny, devising horrifying comparisons to baked goods, silent weeping, etc.
I don't know. We got a lot more time with him than we thought we might, and honestly, that's been true for years -- this cat has burned through about a dozen lives minimum, I think, and stayed in amazingly good humor for most of it, and I'm more grateful for that than I will ever know how to say. Now it basically comes down to how long we can keep his pain reasonably well controlled. That could be weeks, or it could be much less than that. At the moment I'm feeling a weird combination of hope and pessimism, because I think what we have him on right now is helping with the pain, but the apparent side effects (some digestive, some psychological) aren't really acceptable, either. Maybe a lower dose will strike a better balance. On the other hand, maybe not.
Anyway, my online presence is erratic enough that chances are you won't have noticed any difference while this small drama has been unfolding, but if it should happen that you have, or that you do, that'll likely be why.
My cat is full of cancer in much the same way that a chocolate chip cookie is full of chocolate chips. My unhappiness about this fact seems to be distributing itself in a similar fashion, except maybe with more ingredients: acceptance, dissociation, yelping with laughter at tumblr posts that may or may not be funny, devising horrifying comparisons to baked goods, silent weeping, etc.
I don't know. We got a lot more time with him than we thought we might, and honestly, that's been true for years -- this cat has burned through about a dozen lives minimum, I think, and stayed in amazingly good humor for most of it, and I'm more grateful for that than I will ever know how to say. Now it basically comes down to how long we can keep his pain reasonably well controlled. That could be weeks, or it could be much less than that. At the moment I'm feeling a weird combination of hope and pessimism, because I think what we have him on right now is helping with the pain, but the apparent side effects (some digestive, some psychological) aren't really acceptable, either. Maybe a lower dose will strike a better balance. On the other hand, maybe not.
Anyway, my online presence is erratic enough that chances are you won't have noticed any difference while this small drama has been unfolding, but if it should happen that you have, or that you do, that'll likely be why.
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Date: 2014-07-18 01:37 am (UTC)Give him some gentle pets for me. Give yourself some gentle hugs from me.
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Date: 2014-07-18 11:46 am (UTC)Thanks. I've been through this a couple of times now, so I know I can survive it, but it's still really rough.
I hope you and your dog have a lot of good time together still to come. <3